okay brilliant me, realized that bandwidth for host's photobucket account has been exceeded (though distinctly remember self hosting the background image), decided it was a sign for a new layout and thus proceeded to meddle around with those troublesome lists of drop-down options and fearsome boxes with alien names like "custom stylesheet" so tadah here i am, typing a semi-teary goodbye post to be published on a messed-up blog.
then again i've been thinking about switching blogs. will be back with new url, if really do decide to abandon ship!
btw was kidding about the semi-teary part.